[recently, i started a lil feature of asking some very inspirational friends to personally write something simple regarding music thats very meaningful to them. its always been genuinely important to make MIA more open to the community, as i welcome and know you all have very special thoughts and relations too. with no further introduction, im quite honored to share ashley jackson-pierce‘s contribution. not only am i often in awe of her kindness, intelligence and taste but she is also one of my favorite writers.]
I was completely in love with my best friend. Because he was already in a relationship (albeit a complicated and fruitless one), I knew better than to reveal my feelings. After a few miserable months of keeping my secret, I forced myself to move to another state and try to live without him. I hadn’t been gone two weeks before I cracked and confessed my love. The feelings were mutual, but we both knew it was the absolute worst time to pursue a relationship. For him, choosing me essentially meant abandoning all else.
On a particularly difficult day, a friend dragged me with her to see Garden State. It was a major emotional trigger, and I was frozen in my seat from the first scene. The last few minutes of the film, when those strings start in and Largeman abandons all reason and runs back to Sam, nearly killed me.
As the song urged, I really did let go. I had my breakdown. I’m sure the people filing out of the theatre thought I was insane, but I have not since been able to replicate that kind of release. I felt like ten thousand pounds of guilt and uncertainly had been lifted off my shoulders with that one scene, that one song. We’ve been married for two years now, and I still get chills when I watch it.
photography & words by ashley jackson-pierce