nate: claire, you wanna know a secret?
i spent my whole life being scared of not being ready,
of not being right and where did it get me?
all we have is this moment
..right here, right now..
the future is just a fucking concept
that we use to avoid being alive today
..so be here now..
i dont watch tv but this show has been apart of me for the last 5 years. a habit i could never break and never wanted to. it was like being able to watch sequel upon sequel of american beauty. that same cinematography. that same darkness. that same feeling that goes so deep inside you that you cant breathe and you just cry… and its ok.. to keep crying, feeling.. that yr alive. theres so many pieces that i cant explain if you dont know the show. but god its been so strangely coincidental to absolutely everything thats happening in my world. ive found myself inside the minds of a lost but familiar family of characters. how nice to see my reflection. a reality in a sense of myself when ive become so blinded. reborn to innocence. to see yrself from an objective point of a view and absolutely love every detail. the beginning to give of one’s self again. and the realization that nothing will ever be perfect but it cant come close if all one does is keep waiting.
brenda: i always thought that i would have more people in my life as time went on.
billy: hmmph… doesn’t work that way.
brenda: yeah. i’m starting to realize that.
billy: its almost like as we get older, the number of people who completely get us shrinks.
nate: stop listening to the static.
claire: what the fuck is that supposed to mean?
nate: everything in the world is like this transmission making its way across the dark but death, life, everything; it’s all completely suffused with static. *makes static noises* you know? but if you listen to the static too much it fucks you up.
claire: [pause] are you high?
nate: [pause, smiling] i am actually, yeah. i’m quite high.
claire: [smiling then laughing] you are?!
i’m just saying you only get one life.
there’s no god, no rules, no judgments
except for those you accept or create for yrself
and once its over, its over
dreamless sleep forever and ever
so why not be happy while your here?